Well, hello there. :)

Sweet, sweet baby.... you haven't even been created yet, and I'm writing to you already. "Was this woman crazy?" you'll undoubtedly ask someday. And, the answer is No. Well, maybe. :) Why am I writing to a child who not only hasn't been born yet, but hasn't even been made? Because someday you will. Someday, hopefully not too far in the future, I will be with your mommy and daddy and we will all be nervous and excited as we share in the joy that your little heart is beating. I will be pregnant!! Your mommy will cry. Your daddy will hold her and cry, as well, undoubtedly... It will be one of the greatest, most memorable days of all of our lives.

I think I met your mommy yesterday. I didn't actually meet her... not in person, anyway. But, there was just something about her when she emailed me that just felt right. How do people "click" like that online?? I didn't understand it before then either, but I can feel it in my bones that this is the woman that I am supposed to carry a baby for. And, if so, you are one lucky baby. She seems to be such a kind, passionate, caring woman. You will be very loved. No doubt, if she isn't "the one", you will still be extremely loved. But, there is something about this woman that just makes me feel like this is right. I hope I'm right.

I'm starting this blog because I want your parents to be a part of this journey... a part of your own "baby story" from the start. Most children have "baby books" that their parents kept up throughout the first year of their life. Your story will begin here. Now. At the very beginning. Before any shots are taken to prepare my body for the journey it is in for. Before any pink lines are shown on an over the counter pregnancy test. Before we see your tiny heartbeat on a black and white screen, or I feel your flutters and kicks... Your story begins now. February 21, 2012. And you have to know that, even today, before all of this has really begun, you are already so loved. Your parents already love you so much. *I* already love you. I hope to be a part of your life as you grow. I hope that you see me as a part of your family, like an aunt... someone that you know will always have your back and will always have your best interest at heart. And I do. Which is why, after talking to so many families, I still haven't begun this journey- because you don't belong to just any family. I'm not meant to carry just any baby. It's you. I believe that all of this has already been planned out some how, some way... and that it's my job to keep looking until I find your parents. And I think I have. I hope I have.

So, for now, sweet baby- I'm gonna go. But, I'll write more very soon!!! As you'll see, I'm a talker... a writer... and I'm probably going to overwhelm you with my words from time to time. But, it's just because I care. And, you'll thank me one day. :)

I took this picture of myself just a few days ago.

Now you can see just what I looked like at the time of writing this! :)

My Hope For You #1:  That you never take for granted how much love was put into bringing you into this world. So much love.